acid killed earth.

drawing 2
interpersonal communications
feminist theory
ethics and food


opinionated and hateful semester to come.

One of my roommates has no consideration for anyone but himself.
Awhile ago he made a stew and he put pork in it, no big deal whatever I made potato soup later and it was epic win. I asked him about it and he said we would make other stews that we could all eat. Cool! So I came home today after being absolutely exhausted and starving and having a pounding headache and I wanted some food to eat and none of the dishes were done, whatever, everyday shit. I was going to make food anyways. Butt informed me that there was stew to be eaten, but OH WAIT, it has venison in it. Well fuck....now I'm a little upset....never mind. I look in the fridge, nothing to eat, nothing to cook with....whatever....I am seriously kind of ticked about the stew thing because he said we could make stew that I could eat. I wasn't going to say anything but Butt said I should say something. Not to be a dick about it, but to say something...
so I went into the living room and the conversation went like this:
"What's with the stew"
"What about it"
"It has venison in it"
"So?"
"I can't eat it."
"So, I bought all the shit for it"
He always talks about how this is a communal living situation. That means it should be about that everyone is putting in as much as they can and doing their part. Not who is putting how much in and how that adds up in the long run. I got pissed about that so I went into the kitchen to try and calm down and I told him I couldn't be in the same room with him. He comes in the kitchen and wants to know what my problem is and a big hullabaloo ensues where I say that it's not fair that he makes food that not everyone can eat when I make dinner for everyone all the time and I am considerate enough to make meat for them when I don't eat that. He tells me that its different because "I'm a vegetarian, I can eat it if I want to" and then I am livid. I can't even talk I am so pissed. We yell at each other for a minute and I end up being so pissed I am shaking, and for those that know me well enough, I cry when I'm fairly pissed.


that's about it. basically, i want someone other than my parents and my boyfriend gave a rats ass about me. 





p.s. chaddi/marles, if you want to say something about it, say it on here. I don't want to make it into a house discussion just yet. thanks.

my eyes hurt
my head hurts
my heart hurts
my confidence hurts


why cant people be considerate? If we were more accepting of other people we wouldn't have to defend ourselves. Chaddi and Marles were talking about how they never get the chance to defend themselves in real life. I think that would be wonderful. If I never had to defend myself against anyone, especially the ones I love. If I never had to defend my sexual preference, my religion, my political views, my appearance, because everyone was considerate and just plain tolerant, not even accepting. If people would just give a fuck.
I don't like to define my sexuality because when it comes down to it, I'm just a sexual person, plain and simple. When I do define it, I tell people I am a lesbian, but I am in a long term commitment with a man, because I love him. How much would I love to not have to defend lesbianism against anyone because it's ok.
I don't like to define my religion, because I really don't have one. I do believe in something other than myself, something above and beyond, but I have no idea what it is. If I do have to define it, I identify as agnostic, because I just dont know. I shouldn't have to defend what I believe in to anyone else, because it's personal TO ME.
I don't have one political view. I believe in a great mix of communism, socialism, anarchism, and just plain chaos. If people understood what any of that meant, they would be right there with me, but I wouldn't have to tell people I want everyone to be treated equally and that the government should be run by the people for the people.
I LOOK DIFFERENT. I have 5 piercings in my face, my guages are 1 inch, I have 9 tattoos on my legs, arms stomach, crotch, and hands. I have pink and blue hair (for now). I wear clothes that other people don't, in fact I make some of my own. There is no reason to defend that to anyone.

Today, it wasn't about any of these things. It was about my food preference, particularly that I am a vegetarian. I don't want to go over it right now, I've typed too much already. Maybe later...........Just know, that I shouldn't have to feel like a lesser person because I choose not to eat meat. Fuck.

Does anyone else absolutely love that cartoon about the owl family that's all about classical music but the one baby comes out singing some ridiculous song? I do. Like a lot. It's one of the few cartoon plots I actually remember well from when I was little.

I was going to title this blog Owl City, but then I wrote Owl Jolson and I decided to talk about that cartoon. Every time I am in this library I feel like someone is going to come up behind me and tell me I have to leave because I'm not doing schoolwork, but this is college and shit doesn't work like that anymore. i also think about getting on neopets but then I know I would never go to class and i can do that at home.

Speaking of home, I wonder whats for dinner? I've had Pepsi and sunflower seeds today, that's all. I'm going to be ridiculously tired when drawing comes around, but we start drawing with pen today! mmmmmm. I love pen. Pen and ink is better, but ink pen is fine.

I've actually been painting a little bit lately and that's nice. Right now I just have backgrounds and stuff down but that's ok. I made my sister a painting for her birthday and that kind of got me on a roll, so yeah. I need to price my stuff so that I can take it to stockbridge with Maddi soon. I wanted to go to the broadway show on friday, but I have no money. :[


I should probably go to class now.

I look like cotton candy. I feel so much more attractive when my hair is just so.



My roots are showing through
and for once I don't care
You're only looking at the good parts
and I'm looking at the best parts of you.